It’s the kind of thing that would never happen to you and always happens to someone else.
On June 22, 2015 I went to the emergency room for pain in my lower back. I have had problems in the past with my lower back so I just thought I would need to get on prednisone for a couple of days and it would be good.
The ER doctor told me it sounded like a kidney stone so they were going to do an ultrasound. After the test, I was back in the treatment room, zonked out of my mind with the pain pills they had given me. I was feeling no pain and having weird dreams of a basketball game being played right next to my bed.
The doctor came in and said I had a kidney stone but it was too close to the bladder to do anything but wait for it to pass. She then stated I needed to see my primary doctor right away as my lymph nodes were enlarged.
I had no idea what that meant. After the doctor left the room the nurse came over to my side and asked me if i knew what it meant for the lymph nodes to be enlarged. I told her I didn’t so she leaned down next to my ear and said “It’s cancer, you need to see your doctor today.”
I was in total shock and disbelief. It couldn’t be cancer!
I was able to get in with the best Gynecologic Oncologist in the state. Our first meeting was in her office and she sat down in front of me and told me that she would do everything we could do to put me in remission but as it was stage IV I needed to start getting my affairs in order.
Two days after our visit i had a port put in my chest and started on Chemo (Taxal and Carboplatin) that week. I went in every 3 weeks to have the chemo which took the whole day.
Surprisingly, I didn’t get real sick from the chemo. The first and second week I had a little nausea but was mostly just tired. I did lose my hair by the third treatment. My husband took me to a wig store and we got a long hair wig as I loved long hair and the American Cancer Society also gave me a short hair wig along with a makeup bag full of all different kinds of makeup.
When I first noticed strands of my hair falling out I was taking a shower. I spent several minutes crying so hard and asking God why i had to go through this. I remembered a verse that I still go back to everyday, it is from 1 Peter 5:10 After you have suffered a little while God will restore, confirm, strengthen and establish you.
I told God right then that I would gladly walk through this valley, knowing He would carry me through, as long as He could use me to help other people and bring them closer to God. I was thinking of my husband and my son and some close friends when I prayed this but God, as always,has other plans, His plans and He has sent my story to far reaching places, to people I don’t even know that have started praying for me and opening their heart for Jesus to come in. I want to continue to do His work and bring many more people to him.
The day I had to have my head shaved was one of the hardest days. I am so lucky to have a support group of friends and family who are always there for me. One night three of my friends and I got together to shave my head. We turned it into a small party and we laughed and cried together.
If you or someone you know is going through cancer I want to encourage you to follow along with me on this journey. We’ll laugh, we’ll cry, we will learn to reach for life!