Struggling with Emotional Baggage

Sorry I haven’t been posting for a week..  I have been going through a struggle the past 3 weeks and this past week it really got me down.

I have been researching natural ways to cure cancer the past couple of months and I was reading a book about your faith in God and how it relates to curing cancer.  At the same time I was reading this book my doctor called me in and there is an experimental drug through clinical trials that she wanted me to try.

I was struggling with whether I should take the medication or not.  After reading this book I was totally doubting how much faith I had in God.  The author of this book had me believing that if I had cancer and was not following this plan she has, not just with what you eat, drink and how you excerse, but how you are spending your days and how much time you spend with God every day and  you were not getting cured the you then you didn’t have enough faith in God. I was struggling as the book stated if I went with the doctor and kept taking these drugs then God was not going to heal me as I was relying on man and not Him.

I have been a christian since I was 12 years old and was raised in the church by very Godly parents.  I know the bible like the back of my hand. I have gotten away from God a time or two in my 20’s and 30’s but I came back to God.  I finally sat down not quite two weeks ago and talked to my Pastor about the book and how I was struggling to decide if I should try this new medication.  He pointed out to me that people have been healed with medications and people have been healed by doing a more natural method. By getting confused from this book I was following man not God.  


I have been praying all along that God would show me what to do and clear this confusion that I admit, I, myself was bringing into my life.  


I do have a tendency to get in my own way….LOL


This past Friday the confusion was cleared and I started taking the new medication.  I am going to change the way I eat and exercise as I know that sugar just feeds the cancer and while I have tried cutting way back on sugar over the past 3 years I am still eating more of it than I need to be eating.


I think there can be a balance between natural methods and pharmaceutical medication to cure cancer.  Sometimes the balance is hard but getting up every day and working on that balance is what it will take.


One thing I have learned through the past 3 years is that cancer patients have a lot of emotional baggage to deal with.  Maintaining your mental well-being during your cancer journey is crucial.


I have several ways in dealing with the emotional baggage of cancer.  My faith in God is first. Reading daily devotionals and spending time in prayer with God is always the first thing I do each day.  


I also have 4 beautiful small dogs that are Yorkie crosses, they help me so much as they depend on me for everything but are there 24/7 to cuddle with and to play.  They always seem to know when I’m not feeling good and they stay close by me to help cheer me up. It is so calming to pet an a dog or any animal for that matter. There are many other ways of copying through laughter, pets, music, ect..





A few years ago I was seeing a pain specialist who had me bring in a USB drive and she copied some sounds of the ocean along with a voice that had you go through tensing and releasing each part of your body.  It healed relax me, helped me calm down with going through anxiety, even helped me sleep so much better.


What we believe in our hearts and minds affects our immune system, and our immune system is our body’s defense against illness. Our healing system responds positively to an optimistic attitude and beneficial emotions like love, hope, joy and laughter, and negatively to harmful emotions like hate, loneliness and hopelessness.


I have found that if I eat healthy food and not the processed food, if I get outside into the sunshine every day even if only for a little while, keep positive people in my life and get out and socialize with friends and family, that this helps to boost my mood and that helps me to keep fighting every day and reaching for life.


I don’t know how many of you have had this struggle I have been on the past couple of weeks.  How did you handle it? Did you find a balance or just go one way or the other? I would love to hear from you on this subject.


“Promise me you’ll always remember;

You’re braver than you believe,

and stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think.”

                                                                                                                           Christopher Robin to Pooh                                                                                                         A.A. Milne

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